Why I Only Have 5 Posts…

Dear Diversity Class,

The required number of blog posts required for this assignment was 12. Their purpose was to share my thoughts, views, and opinions on the array of topics we have covered in this class. Topics such as; race, disabilities, gender, power, money and more. We were to write 12 blogs and it would help our grade if we were able to be creative with it. I sat down several times throughout the semester to write about what we’ve talked about, and as you can see three out of four of those blogs were absolute trash. Do I think Newfoundland has a serious problems when it comes to diversity? Absolutely. Do I think Donald Trump is a literal child? Yep. However, my views and opinions can be boiled down to this one post and, after crying about it for twenty minutes, I’ve decided to un-apologetically (and in the final 52 minutes before it’s due date) only post one more blog.

I found this class very difficult as a middle-upper class white female. I felt guilty, responsible, and silenced as I listened to the struggles and trials of those who are considered minority compared to me. But I was reminded of a verse from Matthew 20 when Jesus says that those who are the last will be first in the Kingdom of God and those who are first here on Earth will be last. I was also reminded on the verse that says that it is much easier for the poor to inherit the Kingdom than the rich. All to say, I serve this awesome God who sees and loves each and every oppressed and unheard man, woman, and child on the entire planet. God loves them each so much more than we could possibly understand and because of that love we are able to love each other too.

“23Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Truly I tell you, it is hard for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of heaven. 24Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.” 25When the disciples heard this, they were greatly astonished and asked, “Who then can be saved?” 26Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.””

Matthew 19:23-26 (NIV)

I don’t know how we Canadians could ever begin to imagine ways that we could make up for the tragedy that was the residential schools. But I what I do know is that God is a healer and the God of forgiveness. God can mend broken hearts, minds, and relationships. Through the love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness, kindness, goodness, and self control that comes from living in step with the Holy Spirit we can have faith in the hope of one day reconciling with our brothers and sisters and finding harmony in how we live. Perhaps even through that relationship offering the kind of love and support that is needed to put an end to the suicide epidemic. I know that there is nothing we could ever do to fix what has happened, but also that there is nothing that God cannot do.

“22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control.Against such things there is no law.”

  • Galatians 5:22-23 (NIV)

I feel so overwhelmed with the amount of things that I ought to be aware of, and sensitive to, and apologetic for. And I know that even if I spent hours a day trying to keep up with it all I would still fall short of doing the subject of equity justice. But in the Bible it says we ought to bring glory to God, but that we all fall short of accomplishing that. But that’s not the end, we can have hope for greater things to come because of a simple little thing called grace. Grace, put simply, is unearned and undeserved favor and love that God has for us. We know there is grace because while we were still these terrible, sinning people God sent his only son, Jesus, who lived a perfect life, to die in our place so that we can spend our lives and eternity in relationship with a God who desires to be in relationship with us.

“16For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.”

John 3:16-17 (NIV)

It is through our relationships with God that our hearts can be changed on subjects that we can’t even come close to understanding. God, through this relationship, is able to fill our lives with so much love and joy that we can’t help but to love others and share this joy with them. Through this love people are able to see God in us (1 John 4:12). This is why I couldn’t just write a bunch more blogs stating the opinions that would get me the marks I needed, because that’s not my heart. My heart is to share this truth with others so that they can understand their powerlessness and trust in a powerful God who longs for equity and justice far more beautiful than we could imagine.

I am sorry that I didn’t complete the assignment. But if I fail the course knowing that I spoke the truth and with the peace of mind that I didn’t add to the pages of unsatisfactory solutions in social justice on the internet, I will have peace.

I hope you enjoyed my heart.

Kathryn House

11:34pm, August 14th


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